Barrel of Monkeys

Blah, Blah, Blah. That is how I feel today. I have no spunk, no light, no desire to do anything. I have absolutely no desire to create artwork, to exercise, to write or think big. You think it's the weather? maybe almost a week with crappy snow conditions, no school, no hot water wears a girl down. Maybe. I keep thinking of the Keys too. NICE!

What do I want? I want to work in a nice and friendly office. I want to be thin and in shape, I want the freedom to be there for Jade when ever I want, I don't want to answer to anyone. I want nice clothes, money in the bank and a rewarding career. I want to be a great mom/wife. I want to create my life instead of following a path laid out by expectations.

So how the freak do you begin? I have no freaking clue. My whole life I've been on this quest to "do my own thing" and I've taken a few stabs at it, all unsuccessful. So now what? I guess I keep plugging away. My time will come. So will Spring. Thank goodness.