Feelin' LAZY

Last day of kindergarten. The new "first grader".

I'm at a standstill. I have a ton of things I can be/should be doing and I don't want to do ANYTHING. Ever feel like that? I always think "I should be doing this and that to get ahead" and I couldn't be the least bit interested in getting ahead, with anything! Lose weight, create some art, pay bills, draft a really cool sales plan for work - NAH. I'd rather sit back, check emails, listen to music, think and drink wine.

Yup, that's where I am in this particular moment. My daughter just finished Kindergarten. She is now "officially" a first grader - oooh, ahhhh. "mommy, do I look seven?" she's been asking lately. I tell her, "don't rush it sweetie". But deep down inside it is rushing like a freaking tornado. Just yesterday she was 10 months old, eating peas and yogurt, then she was four sooooo happy to be turning five and now she is finished with kindergarten, and hoping to look like a seven year old. 

I can't keep up. I actually don't want to keep up, I'd like time to stand still for a little while. Let me eek out some more time with my baby, before she completely grows up and moves on. It's crazy how kids absolutely make life magical and then in the next moment they make life so short. They grow and change so quickly that  it can take your breath away. And it usually does take my breath away.

I suppose that's why I'm feeling the way I do today. I just want to slow things down a bit, squeeze a bit more out of my time with my soon to be seven year old because before you know it, she's going to be 30 and with a family of her own. But I get ahead of myself. I have this beautiful 6 year old, asleep in my bed (in MY spot) after a fun last day of kindergarten waiting for me to join her. So for tonight, I'm gonna crawl into bed, get kicked and punched by my six year old in her sleep, and freaking LOVE EVERY SECOND of it. Yeah baby! Bring it on!