People are funny. You can learn a lot about yourself through people. There are people who make you happy, sad, anxious, amorous etc. and all you need to ask yourself is "why?" and you have great insights into yourself.
I'm going through a phase where I only want to be with people who make me happy. Why? Because I want to be happy, I want to laugh, I want to feel loved and good about myself. When I'm with the people who make me happy I feel all of those things.
On the other hand, there are people in my life who I can not avoid and make me feel anything but happy. This is my curse and blessing all wrapped up with a pretty pink sparkly bow. How do I feel about the people who make me anxious, second guess myself, make me feel insecure, not worthy? I now know, after MANY years of dealing with this "issue" that these people do not have the power to make me feel all of those things, how I
feel is
my reaction to their actions and words.
So what does all of this mean? It's how I react to people that matters. Do I let peoples words and actions get under my skin, do I give them the power to turn a good day into a bad one? Do I give them the power to take away minutes and hours of my time with negative thoughts about who I am and what I do? No freaking way baby! I am done.
As you know, this is my year of doing things differently. From this point on I will walk confidently and happily into every moment and not let the negative people get in my way or occupy my space. Life is too short and AWESOME to waste one second in a bad place. Will I stand up for myself? Yes. Will I honor my feelings about people and situations? Yes. Will I be the beacon of happiness in this crazy world? Yes! Will I drive people crazy? YES! but that's OK, that's who I am and I'm OK with that!!
P.S. Dad is such an inspiration. What a freaking awesome dude. When I stop to think about what he has been through, and the challenges he has overcome. He embodies the true essence of living life to the fullest! It makes all of the negative stuff sooooo insignificant and small. We are blessed!